Thanks to Charlotte the world isn't over.
I want to leave this host family so bad. And it seems like I'm the blame for it. My host siblings are always yelling and hitting my hmom. My hmom has no control over her kids and she is just a slave to them.
Last night i got to my town from the train station at like 10:40pm. I kept calling my hmom because i didn't have any money for a bus. Also my hmom gave me the wrong contact information so i was kinda screwed. She finally called me back and told me that she was going to pick me up. YAY! wrong. I was expecting her to get to the station in the 5 mins. 10 mins MAX. no. She ended up picking me up at like midnight. Yep you heard it. MIDNIGHT. It only takes 5 mins to drive to the station from my house. so im standing in front the station. for forever. There are many drunk Japanese people around because it is a bar nearby. And since im gaijin(foreigner) i was stared at. And sense im black, they looked like they wanted to do something bad.
I'm still trying to figure out why the HELL would you let a foreign child waiting, at night for you to come. When my hmom picked me up. She had like make up on and everything. O.o
I actually shed a few tears while i was standing in front of the station. Mental. Breakdown.
I contacted Charlotte Hays Murray on Facebook and she is doing the best she can to try to fix this for me. When i called Funada, it seemed like she was blaming it all on me. Like you shouldn't have been late. But i dont wanna hear that. If Ive been complainin and complainin over and over. I'm not just bored with life. Something is actually wrong. DUH!
So im thinking about life right now. MJ died and this expensive ass trip to Japan is ruining my life forever.
email me at: panda-love19@ezweb.ne.jp
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Ari... chi, I'm so sorry. If you need to talk, feel free to contact me, okay? ^^ [shineshinedynasty [AT] yahoo [DOT] com]
ReplyDeleteBut be strong, girl. I know your host fam is supposed to take care of you... or rather, provide for you. However, you'll probably be taking care of yourself more than you ever expected. Being in a new place with people you haven't known very long... well, it's stressful and lonely. I can understand; that's how it was when I went to college for the first time. After a while though, you get used to doing for yourself. I'm not sure if you're religious or not, but if you are, trust in God because He's the only one who won't let you down... (and who will travel with you like a million miles from your home town :D).
Be strong, Ari, and I hope the situation improves. Don't know how close you are with your host parents, but maybe mention how scary and akward it is for a girl your age (and your nationality, which is very... critical) to be out alone. I'm not sure they completely realize the amount of stress and need you have right now. I know it's a different culture, but they are human after all. Talk to them, I'm sure they will listen.
Good luck, chiquita. Take care and holla at me if you need to! <3 <3 Be safe and God bless!
im on the same boat as you about the last part. where this expensive ass trip is messing up my life. no, wait. its just AFS thats doing a lousy job.
ReplyDeleteSounds about right.
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