depression.

Thanks to Charlotte the world isn't over.
I want to leave this host family so bad. And it seems like I'm the blame for it. My host siblings are always yelling and hitting my hmom. My hmom has no control over her kids and she is just a slave to them.
Last night i got to my town from the train station at like 10:40pm. I kept calling my hmom because i didn't have any money for a bus. Also my hmom gave me the wrong contact information so i was kinda screwed. She finally called me back and told me that she was going to pick me up. YAY! wrong. I was expecting her to get to the station in the 5 mins. 10 mins MAX. no. She ended up picking me up at like midnight. Yep you heard it. MIDNIGHT. It only takes 5 mins to drive to the station from my house. so im standing in front the station. for forever. There are many drunk Japanese people around because it is a bar nearby. And since im gaijin(foreigner) i was stared at. And sense im black, they looked like they wanted to do something bad.
I'm still trying to figure out why the HELL would you let a foreign child waiting, at night for you to come. When my hmom picked me up. She had like make up on and everything. O.o
I actually shed a few tears while i was standing in front of the station. Mental. Breakdown.
I contacted Charlotte Hays Murray on Facebook and she is doing the best she can to try to fix this for me. When i called Funada, it seemed like she was blaming it all on me. Like you shouldn't have been late. But i dont wanna hear that. If Ive been complainin and complainin over and over. I'm not just bored with life. Something is actually wrong. DUH!
So im thinking about life right now. MJ died and this expensive ass trip to Japan is ruining my life forever.

email me at: panda-love19@ezweb.ne.jp